One thing I say I think, but really don't

I just don`t know what to write today.
I really try not to say what I don´t mean.
No, I don´t know what to write,

My best quality

Oh no !!

This feels like sitting at boss' room  and answer her questions about my best qualities and those
which I can improve.
Improve ? Who, me ?
Smile.

OK, so, my best quality..
I hear often, that I am a good leader.
I am not authoritative.
I am supportive.
I want all around me flower up and do their best.

I am a very loyal friend.
I have known my best friend for 43 years.

I love to take care about my family, my friends.

I love.
I love strong and passionately.

 

One thing I wish I could do

I wish I could sing and play some instrument well.
But singing in a choir is something I wish I could do.

I love music.
Music is beauty in our Life.
Music is a  blessing in our Life.
Music is is a food for our soul.

The best restaurant in my town

 













I like Il Forno Italiano, a restaurant  ca 50 m. from my house.
It  is a classic Italian restaurant with a cosy Tuscan atmosphere.
I love their food.

What you have learned today

I have worked very hard last week.
I was so tired and today I wanted just take it easy.
But you know, there is a little voice in my soul, which all time talked to me:
you should clean, look how it is needed
you should do something, not just read a book
you should do this and that..

But...

What about me?
When will I Think just of me?
When will I take care about my needs?

Today.
I did it.

Today I learned, that I am the most important person in my Life.

A simple pleasure

Life has taught me to appreciate little nice things in my life.

You never know if there will be a next time, or if I will be here the next day.

A simple pleasure for me, it is to find my own time  read a nice book,  and listen to music, sitting on the sofa, without any time pressures on me,  just know, this is my time to enjoy.

I love to bath in the bathtub. With music and wax lights on.
We have no bathtub right now, and I miss it very much.

Have you thought about how it feels to walk barefoot on the fine lawn in the courtyard during summer?
It is pleasure. Knowing these soft bristles under the toes and feel the freedom without shoes ..

To sit with the family and eat dinner together and hear the children talk about what happened during the day. To laugh together, to enjoy a good meal together with their loved ones, it is a pleasure for me.

Staying up all night talking with my best friend or read a book all night.


It is simple pleasure to me..

The best part of a rainy day

Rainy day.

Listening to the rain on our tin roof and windows ... it's like a music.
Faster.
Slower.
Piano.
Forte.
Fortissimo.
To feel the nice smell of rain ... when The Earth is washing her face in rainwater.
The gray colour of the day ... so soothing.
Calming down.

And when rain is gone..
Everything is...
Clean.

Three good thoughts

One thing not to worry about

is...


That Divine Beloved will take care about you, your Life.
Just put Everything in her hands.

Did you know, that  Divine Beloved is a SHE ?

Of course SHE  is.

A way to relax

I love my work,
I mean LOVE.
But my work is both physically and mentally very intense.

I know, there are people, who go and have a work out after work.
But I cant do it. ´
My feet are already in pain.
Smile.
I need calm down,
So my best relax is with music and good book.

I love Classic Music and have my favourites, which I play over and over.. but that's alright with me.
I still find different ways of playing violin in this or that performance.

Recently I have been thinking about do a yoga.
I think it will be a good way for me to relax.
I will give it a try.

What really matters

Just one answer came to my mind.
LOVE

In some way I think, LOVE is beginning of it all



and that should be end of all we do as well,
I think.

What are you waiting for

I am waiting for my daughter finish her floorball training
I am waiting for a card about my friends death.
I am waiting for a strange to do a biggest decision in my Life.

One thing to do today

My daughter has started at a new school.
The same school where her older siblings went to.
Tonight, at 18.00 we have first parent-teacher meeting at this school.
We get to meet the principal, teachers, I will sit in her classroom, at her desk.
I will talk to her class teacher, which is same as her brother's for 4 years ago.
And I will meet parents to her classmates, some of them I know already.
My daughter has her two best friends in same class.

A new epoch in my daughters and our Life starts.
Bring it on !!!!!!!!

A minor roadblock in my life- done

A minor roadblock in my Life..
Hmmm..

I don´t have them.
I have just big roadblocks in my Life.
Right now.
You know, like Kilimanjaro.
Or Himalayas.
But, it will be better,
It must be,
It is always better..after.
After I can put my life to Divine Beloved hands.
And trust her, that all will be as it should be.

I try.
Hard.

The last library you visited

The last library I visited was our library, in town I live.
It was with my daughter , who wanted loan some book for summer,
It was a nice visit, She knew what kind of book she wants, but she couldn't  find them. ´
She asked about help,  and miracle happened !!!

I love it, when I find a right people in right job.
This librarian took her to some of rooms, where we thought we were not allowed to inter, and there my daughter found her paradise !!!
She had very very serious discussion about all the books with the librarian.

It makes me smile even now. to see those big eyes of my daughter,  and happiness about a good book,
Yes, she found her book and 5 more.
Reading for the hole summer.

"Mom, you cant understand, how goooood these books are..."
Smile.
"Yes, honey, I can.
Be there,
Done that,
And you will remember it, all your life, , as I remember my feelings.."

The things that gives you hope

The things that gives me hope...

I love this question..
. 

How often we feel hopeless and discouraged , which drains our energy, when we think about world and our life?

So today I will write 5 things, which gives me hope...

1. The acts of kindness

Like a stranger who found my sons new IPhone and left it in police station for sending it  to our house. 

2. Dreams

Dreams made us humble and patient. It is good to dream. There are from our Dreams, that big things happen.

3. A smile from a stranger

I just love this a smile from stranger can change your bad day to a good one. I try myself often smile against stranger. One never knows, what one simple smile can do miracles.

4. A knowledge, that we are all connected

I am so thankful, that all good peoples positivity and can fight against worlds bad things.
Ying-yang. 

5. A sense of purpose

I hope, that this new generation which is growing up, will take a stand against evil of this world, against greed and the power-hungry of the countries and it's leaders in a better way, than my generation did.

An imporant truth

The important truth to me is :
We are here on the Earth because we have to learn,
to  be a better person,
to love more
and evolve as a person.
Learn  lessons , which are meant to be learnt.

Goodbye Ab...

Death is nothing at all.

I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word

that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind

because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well.

A favorite meal

My favourite meal is:
all kinds of soup for starter,

then salmon in all it´s simplicity with potatoes and just plain Sour Cream sauce, with vegetable and potatoes.

 For dessert : plum dumplings  with ground poppy seeds on or ground walnuts

Oh, I just love bread. So yes, to starter, I will take a slice of this bread.

A time you made a good choice

The best choice I made in my all life was, when I followed my heart, and moved to Sweden..

Here I could live with the love of my life, here I gave birth to our three wonderful children.
Here I have found my work, which I love.

This beautiful country changed my life for ever. 

Made me a better person,

Swedish mentality, what they stand for, is just so right for me,
I am home here.

Without a doubt.

And recently,  Sweden  has topped a poll as the best ‒ or “goodest” ‒ country when it comes to serving the interests of its people while avoiding damaging impacts to other nations and the Environment.

A celebration

"What you actually love is most truly reflected in your actions, not in what you feel, think or say."

Adyashanti

 

I am going through a very difficult time in my life.
But I still want celebrate :

LOVE

Love is what counts in our life, love is what makes us do things.
Love is, what make us move forward.
Love is, what I need in my Life.

 

 

Something to share

What to share ?
I don't know...

Hmmm....
Ok,
I am woman in her fifties, short, round and my hair is red just now, and I love that colour on me.
It represent quite well my... temper... smile.
I am wife, mom and I am paediatric  nurse.
I just LOVE all Three parts of my Life.
I love to be wife, mom and nurse.
I like Music, poetry and I am creative soul.

Ok,
It is enough with sharing..

How do you encurage others ?

How I encouraged other people is related to my personality and what encouraged me.
I wrote about LOVE.
I want show my love to them I love and  I encouraged them do likewise.
I like get hugs, positive word, talk to people.
At work, I often give hugs to my co-workers after a good day and say: good work, it was so nice work with you..
At bad day... they know me, I will say: OK, this is our day, make the best of it. Talk do each others, help to each others.
Yes, I know, I can be a good leader, I have heard it so many times...
Smile.

Always positive encouragement.

But I know as well that I am better at giving such encouragements, then take one to heart myself.
Smile.

What encurages you

This question made me stop for a few days and think.
Hmmm....

So, what encourages me is often a  some kind of positivity, what make me want be better or do better.
Like LOVE.

I love to speak to people, who encouraged me with their kindness, their intellect or what they do.
Nice word or nice music, can do under for me.
A nice word from a friend, a co-worker, makes me want do even better..
Well done at work, can encourage me to do even more, even better..
To see my family , my children do well.. encourage me to do more for them..

But it's also one thing of the negative reality, that can encourage me to do things.
Injustices !!!!!!
I hate, hate, did I say I hate injustices !?!
I hate seeing people being treated badly, unfairly.
That bring out a different personality out of me ..
I call it for " up on the barricades and fight against injustice", personality ..
Yes, I often get bangs, but it is worth it.
Smile.

Advice to ignore

Hmmm... hard question...

I have thought about this for a while and concluded that it is about raising children.
I come from a conservative environment, where children did , what they were told. A child will listen to the first word. There is no need for repetition. We were punished for doing wrong.
We were told that respect lies in discipline.
The best way, in my opinion, is to be a rebel.
And I was the rebel.

This advice I chose just to ignore.
In my world, children are brought up with positive actions, where there is no place for penalties.
And respect is nothing that should be required.
Respect should be earned.
Children can never get too much love.
Just too less.

Something you want to try

Oh, what a funny question.
I want to try so many things, things.
But there are two things I want to do within the next 5 years.
I will walk El Camino in North of Spain and I want to take the course in pottery.
I will use three colours : red, black and blue.
I will.....
In 5 years...
I will.

Your first memory of one friend

I met my best friend, when I was 10 year old.
We went to the same school, but she was in sixth grade and I was in fifth.
I met her and her friends on the break.
And I felt it within me:
"I want to be friends with her."
So I went up to them and said:
"Hey, can I join you? "
Smile.

The rest of this tale is that 41 years later we are still best friends.
We are acquainted with each other's secrets.
We are still each other's backs when needed.
We are friends. whose friendship was created already before we were born.
Me and my friend Dadi.

This week successes

So many of my family members are born in August .
You know, all those strong Lions, who wants to rule the world.
Smile.

This week we had two big celebrations with 10 guests on each.
I organized it and made all the food.
So proud of myself...
We had a very nice time. Three generations together.
Talking all over each other, laughing, eating and drinking, singing..
Like a big, loud family.
Just like I love it.

This week successes:

What does content look like

It looks like a new baked bread or cooked meal.

It looks like family eating together around the table.

It looks like all laugh and all questions children share with their parents.

It looks like have enough of money to do a little extra with family.

It looks like be healthy enough to work and earn money. 

I try to be thankful. .

I know, that all things,  I take for granted, someone else is praying for.

To be patient is difficult.

But I try...

Where you want to be

I want to be in a country 1000 km from my country.
I want to hug my dear friend, who is going towards the end of his life.
I want to see his eyes and look into his eyes and say thank you.
Thank you, my dear friend, for all you gave me.
For all your love,
For all your time.
For all your wisdom,
For all your advice.
For all your kindness.

I can?t even say, how you have enriched my life.
You are the best friend a man could imagine.
Your goodness, made me a better person.
Your thoughts, your quiet way of being, has helped me so many times through the difficulties, You gave me explanation when I needed to understand. how a man thinks.
You were there for me, when life was most  difficult and I just wanted lie down in a fetal position.

You picked me up again and again and made me feel better.
What a wonderful  person you are and what a wonderful friend you are.
I feel blessed to have met you and got to know you , my dear, dearest friend.
I will miss you so much !

But...
I will cope.
Because, I know, you will look after me even from the other side.
If it is possible, you will, and I will thank you for it.
Please, do it...

I love you and you will be with me, in my heart,  to the end of my life.
And then...

Then we will meet again.
Please, meet me there over,  when it is my time to fly home.
Love you, A....

The best parts of fall

Soon it will be autumn here.
In a few weeks, we have here the first autumn day.
Autumn is certainly not my favourite time of year, it's spring.
Yet, the fall has so much  of beauty and life wisdom to offer.









I like the colours that nature dress in.
The leaves turn yellow, red, brown.
On my daily route to work, I see this every year. How  trees begin to turn yellow and then there are  all the colours together, until all leafs are falling down on the ground.
To go and trample on these layers of leaves and kicking them, as I did as a child ... it always makes me smile.
This is a lesson of beauty.




You can really see that nature is dying, as it does every year.
About 6 month later, the circle of life starts again. There will be new leaves, more beautiful   than those that fell to the ground. Often, when something is ending, something better is on its way to us.
This is a lesson of wisdom.




I look forward to light candles in every room, as soon as I get home from work.
It gets darker outside, but it brightens the home.
It is also one of best parts of fall.