Saturday, 31 October 2015

Lit a candle and let it burn...

The first weekend in November,  it is already dark most of the day, in the land of Vikings. But not this weekend. This weekend, people  lit thousands of lanterns and candles  on cemeteries around the country . This weekend we celebrate "All Saints Day" in Europe, which means that we remember our beloved dead. We travel across the country and the nation to lit candles on  graves and put some flowers on  graves.
Typically, the chrysanthemum .
In my head  this beautiful flower are always associated with grave  and sadness.

I  wanted always
 pass this tradition  on to my children, so I had to find a new tradition. The nearest cemetery  is  about  100 meters from where we live . It is an old cemetery , where many of the most famous writers and scientists men are buried. Every year we go to the cemetery with candles and matches in hand to select  
10 different graves and light candles . We choose those graves that have no lights on. Maybe there's no one alive who can remember these people.So we are doing it.. We are remembering  them. We light candles, talk about who may have been buried here , what kind of life the man or woman  lived.


This year it will be different. As the first grave we will go to B. grave. This wonderful woman, who meant to us so much, who died last year. For the first time, we will light the candles on her grave, put down arrangement  of grey moss that I have done and talked to her in our hearts and let the tears of pain from missing her,  to fall down our cheeks. I miss you so much, B. So much…
This weekend we  will  lit the candle for my beloved dad. I was "Pappa`s daughter."
Always.
A father who has never even raised voice against me and whom I loved,  and did everything that he wanted me to do, out of love for him.
Who died  20 years ago, only 59 years old.

We will lit  the candle to  the memory of my dear grandmother. A simple woman who have lived with us for 25 years at our flat and who had love us  all . A simple , farmer woman, who lost her first husband at age of 19, and had to  bury six children while she was alive , but never complained .

 I lit the  candle to the  memory of Bas.
May you all rest in peace, we will meet again!

Saturday, 5 September 2015

I am glad I can feel Gratitude

Actually, I wanted to write my blog post yesterday, but I was way too tired.
It was a very busy week at work and I came home every day both mentally and physically tired.
Despite this, I love my job, to be able to make a difference in people's lives, as my friend says.

I look forward to going to work 99% of the time. I look forward to see and work with my work mates. With many of them I have worked over 15 years together and you get to know each other quite well.
I was not alone in this feeling of fatigue this week. So we agreed (five of us) to meet next week after work, to drink a glass of wine together and talk and laugh and we'll see, maybe even cry. together.

Today is my "lazy" day, as I call it, and I usually treat myself with  such a day when my body or mind need it. I do what I want and not what I need that part of the day.



  1. Today I am thankful for the Music I have listened to throughout the day. The meditative, calming music that makes me feel good.
  2. I am grateful that I was able to be alone during the morning. I needed it.
  3. I am grateful for the nice chat conversation I had with my friend Dadi.Thanks, Dadi, you know what you mean to me. And we will help each other, as long as we live.And we will help each other to develop as it was meant to be: "To reach the stars, to reach the light."
  4. I am grateful that I do not need cook any food today ( smile). My husband is in the kitchen to prepare food, and tomorrow we are invited to a barbecue party.
  5. Today I am thankful that I can feel gratitude. Appreciate and give thanks for simple things in my Life.
See you,

Angelzuz.



Tuesday, 1 September 2015

Walking in the morning

"Walking in the morning takes you to beautiful places where light and shade make love."


Prof. Mohamed Shareef

I thought about this quote this morning when I walked to work. Just 20 minutes to go and soak up the scenery around me. It always puts me in a better mood.

Several years ago, I have heard and read about the long trek through Spain, in St. James track, it is 800 kilometers. The more I read about this the more I feel how this pilgrimage trek call me.:
"Come and join all those thoudsands pilgrims"..
So, I'm determined to answer this longing in me and to do the walk 2017- 2018. I need time to ready myself and save money.

Today is Wednesday and I start this September with gratitude.


  1.  I am grateful that all of us in the family are healthy 
  2. I am grateful that my children dare to take decisions that may affect their lives in the direction no one can predict
  3.  I'm grateful for these nice days, we have now. Although it's getting cold in the morning and in the evening, during the day, we have many sunny hours
  4. I am grateful that I have been able to make a little jewelry these last few week. I would actually have to deal with this every day. Making jewelry is like meditation for me. It does me good.
  5. Last, but not least, I am thankful for all my friends around the world. You know who you are. I feel such gratitude and humility that you are in my life. You make my life richer .

See you...
Angelzuz

Tuesday, 25 August 2015

I'm back!

The summer holidays for the children here in Sweden are over. Last week school started again.
We have had a good summer. We travelled and met friends and family. And as always, time has not succeeded in everything what was planned and everything went too fast.
Just as it is in Life.

My oldest son has begun to study at the University.
A major milestone in his and our lives. All memories of when he was born, so long awaited, and of course he was the most beautiful newborn, upon the earth at that time.
And now he is an adult young man ..

I have often thought of Gratitude challenge.  I did.
I liked it and it made me feel good. Too see all of the things I am blessed with. I will continue with it and 3 times a week on Monday, Wednesday and Friday I will do this challenge and write about  5 things I am grateful for in my life just then.

So I am back.
And it feels good. 

See you.. 



Thursday, 9 July 2015

Holiday season

I know, I have not written for a long time and not as often as I would have liked during June. But I am still so grateful that I have made this little grateful estate Challenge. I have really become aware of so much that I can be grateful for in my life. It gave me a little different perspective on things. I would love to return to being grateful and want to have at least one entry in a week with this theme. I think it will do me good.


This week I have my holidays and three weeks ahead. All three children are at home so ... I try to find my own time as much as I can.
Between all the musts in the home, cooking that will never end, and  I do not talk about the quantities of food which  are moved every week from ICA to our pantry and refrigerators.
But it is like it is .
This fall, life will change for our family and I think I will miss it, how it is now. Son 2 will move out for 9 months.
Changes .. I need time to adjust to them. It is just how I am.

But so far it is summer and I have my holiday. And I intend to enjoy it as much as I can.
I will not write often during the summer. But when I can I like to write about what happened in my everyday Life.

Have a nice summer all..
See you,
Angelzuz

Wednesday, 24 June 2015

A day like this...

What a day it was!
At work, everything happened  at the same time, things were complicated, things were forgotten, and all happened with the speed of 150km / hour.
But it was not an unpleasant day, as a friend of mine says about days like this.
It was a day that requires a lot of me, but in the end, I had the great good feeling that I have done good job.
I have done some things that made life easier and better for some children.

Today I am thankful for:
  1. 1. morning .. a cloudy day, drizzle ..But it was so nice. The colours always look clearer and finer during days like this
  2. I miss my daughter who is at the music camp. Today I made contact with her. They have very poor coverage of the mobile network where she is.
  3. Today I have been able to minimize the pain of a child to a minimum with the help of nitrous oxide and guided imaginary. .. Three painful procedures, but he and I, we swam with dolphins in our fantasy ... Wonderful.
  4. My boys have shopped food for dinner. Following my instructions, but still.
  5. For a child-free time in the evening ..smile..

See you,
Angelzuz

Sunday, 21 June 2015

Midsummer

Midsummer.
This year I celebrated it with my  family and friends.
Three days with good food,  our children and their and our friends around.
I have not been alone for a second ..lol ..

At the evenings lively diskusioner about life, what's right and wrong.
I like it..
And I was so happy that boys have decided to celebrate with us most of the day and then at night to meet friends.
Days like this, I feel certainement There is so much in my life to've become grateful.

1. Today I am thankful for my nearest and dearest.
My husband and my children.
I have a nice husband and nice children. I need to say it more often.
2. I am thankful for all the friends we have. Friends are truly a gift that makes life more interesting and pleasant.
3. It would be rain and cold. It was not so much rain and the sun came up here and there. Thanks for that.
4. I am thankful for all the joy we had on Midsummer celebrations with dancing around the midsummer pole.
5. Today I have been sitting for several hours at our yard under  the apple tree and read.
It was so nice and I needed it so much. Just being able be  quietly.
It gave me energy and serenity that I really need just now.
And for it, I am very greatful..

See you,
Angelzuz

Midsummer

This year I celebrated midsummer with my family and friends.
Three days with good food, our children and their and our friends around.
I have not been alone for a second ..lol ..

At the evenings lively diskusioner about life, what's right and wrong.
I like it..
And I was so happy that boys have decided to celebrate with us most of the day and then at night to meet their friends.
On days like this, I feel complacent. There is so much in my life to become grateful of.

  1. Today I am thankful for my nearest and dearest. My husband and my children. I have a nice husband and nice children. I need to say it more often.
  2. I am thankful for all the friends we have. Friends are truly a gift that makes life more interesting and pleasant.
  3. Forecasts were rain and cold. It was not so much rain and the sun came up here and there. Thanks for that.
  4. I am thankful for all the joy we had on Midsummer celebrations with dancing around the midsummer pole.
  5. Today I have been sitting for several hours at our yard under  the apple tree and read.
    It was so nice and I needed it so much. Just being able be  quietly. It gave me energy and serenity that I really need just now. And for it, I am very greatful.

See you,
Angelzuz

Thursday, 18 June 2015

Prioritizing myself

At last Thursday and my working week is over...
This weekend is the Midsummer so we will have guests and celebrate three days, as we  should ..

I've been working a lot lately, and even the weekends were busy with various familly things and I feel tired.
Today, when I came home from work, I was suddenly alone at home. It felt like eternity.  I had a private time for myself.
Entire 45 minutes for myself ... lol. I know ..



Today I am thankful for:

  1. my oldest son started cleaning the kitchen after dinner,without me  needed say one word
  2. my other son went with me and made a big grocery shopping with me, without me needed say to him
  3. then we came home my daughter was vacuumed the apartment by herself without me needing say to her
  4. This evening I have prioritized myself, and ordered myself free time. While my daughter vacuumed, the vacuum cleaner broke down, the Universe has determined ... no vacuuming for me today ..lol
  5. I'm so thankful for three days in front of me .. I need them very much.

See you,
Angelzuz

Wednesday, 17 June 2015

Quality time with job mates

It was a nice day at work. Today we had a Midsummer lunch we arranged ourselves. Everyone who worked this , came with some food for our Midsummer buffet.
Very good food, very nice company, we managed to eat together and toasted with water for the summer.






Today I am thankful for:
  1. My nice workmates. It is also because I work where I work for so many years that I feel comfortable with  people I work with. For me it is 16 years.
  2. I am grateful that we had made this lunch. I saw how everyone thought it was a lovely lunch and everyone enjoyed eating together.
  3. I am grateful for this summer bouquet as my colleague picked in the meadow behind her house. I just love these wild flowers. And the best part was that I got to take home the flowers with me.
  4. Today I am grateful that I was able to change life for the better for those who needed me at work
  5. Once again, I am grateful that I make this challenge. As I wrote before .. it does me good.



See you, 
Angelzuz